goodbye.

goodbye. it's the hardest word that i've ever encountered. i must admit, saddest and most painful thing to say. to let go of that something you love, especially if you're used to it.

i had said goodbye so many times. i did not know how many 'goodbyes' i said which literally means bye for good. in this past few weeks i had to say goodbye to a certain habit. its hard though, but im trying to cope up without it. i had to quit that certain habit for my maturity. i dont know why im saying this, but im not feeling very confident and secure lately.

another budding goodbye is a friend which i have been close to since i entered college. we dont know who influenced her to avoid us... we dont know what's the real score of keeping distance from us... all i know is after that ocassion, that certain someone began to put a gap on us. it's so sad that after all those laughters (and tears, if there are) we shared, all those good times, all those sleep overs, all those concerts weve been to as a barkada will just disappear -- just because someone made a bad comment about us. though we cant push her to stay with us, i just hope that she knew that we are still her friends, no matter what. we cant blame her for being supsceptible for change, change is constant. its the only thing that remains constant in this damn, fucking world.but for heaven's sake, i wish she wont trash all those memories and leave our friendship for good. to whoever you are... you are still our friend. let's keep it like the old times.

cheers.

bye -- but not for good.